This verse and passage felt extremely personal today. Abram had just defeated numerous armies to rescue Lot. Then, he obeyed God and turned down the treasure that could have been his. Wow! What a victory! Now, he’s back home, and God shows up in a vision.
“Do not fear…”
My first question was, “Wait, why now? Shouldn’t God have said this before the battle?”
But as leaders, I’ve found the greatest battle is inward, after the battle, when the inner attacks and doubts and fears creep in. After the mountain-top experience, when life resumes in the valley.
Did I do the right thing? What is the meaning of all this anyway? Is it even worth it? Do I matter?
Often in these times, I avoid God. I feel exhausted and grumpy and sad and guilty for the fears and doubts.
So when God shows up in this passage, offers blessings and promises, and even gives Abram what he really needs – a long deep sleep – I almost cried.
Then, as Abram honestly asks questions, God patiently answers and gives further clarity.
It reminds me of Elijah, after the great fire battle, falling into depression, and God provides encouragement, a nap, and angelic snacks.
Or Jesus, after the high of His baptism, falling into temptation in the wilderness. Then after, God sends angels with food and comfort.
Ok – mental note, Becky. Next time, when you’re worn out or have finished the next “big,” thing, after the victory, go lay on God’s lap and let Him reassure you. Let Him love on you. Ask your questions and hear His answers. It’s ok to feel this way. Use these emotions to turn you toward God, not away from Him.
And also, don’t forget to take a nap.
